under construction

i am tired.

i think i need to start building walls again.

in there,

it's cold, deathly silent, and lonely.

but it's safe.

no one will have to leave.

because i am alone in the first place.

no disappointments and broken trust.

a perfect place to rest.

but it has a big gaping hole

a remnant of the not so distance past

light was seeping in

and made me think that the outside world was so inviting

but maybe i was wrong because

when i look at it now

i realize that it's nothing but an ugly flaw to

my supposedly sturdy fortress

a sign of weakness..

a big gaping hole, that's all there is to it.

i am so tired

it won't be long before i decide

to crawl back inside

use that same darned hole,

patch it up

and make sure

that this time,

my walls are twice as strong.


(..?enola ffo retteb i ma .. erac t'nod tsuj ro ,tsurt ruoy kaerb ,evael rehtie lliw yeht)

?em emalb uoy nac tub ,truh teg i nehw edih i , drawoc citehtap a ma i